Sustain my body with Life Energy

A journey to free myself from the need of food to survive

In this blog post I would love to share a path with you. A path that has been calling me very strongly. A path that is unknown for most humans in this time, but feels for me like an important part of our human evolution. It is a path that you might not understand, might not relate with. But it can also be a path that inspires you in many different ways, a path that opens up whole new fields of life that weren't visible before. At least that is what this path gives me every day. 
 

Following the path of Human evolution,
Is a path unknown for many,
A path to be discovered, 
To be explored,
It is a path of resistance and fear,
A path of constant change and challenges,
Change and challenges that will bring us 
more and more freedom to truly Live. 

Everytime I started writing this blog post I got stuck. The energy wasn't flowing and the words just didn't come out of my hands. So I decided to take a step back, to look at what I was doing. While taking distance from my writing process, I saw that every word I wrote was written with the energy to help you as a reader to understand my path. I wasn't sharing what my heart and soul wanted to share but I was sharing what I thought you would like to read. When I saw this happening I understood that the opinions of others still influence me, and that somewhere maybe I feel scared about what the world would think of me. Would they reject me when I share my story, my beliefs, when I share the path that I am taking? With those questions I found the rejection I feel within myself, the rejection of my true self that for a long time I couldn’t see. So I sat down for a moment, to be with myself, to nurture myself, to See myself.
 

To let myself know that I am here and I am allowed to be here,
no matter what the world around me thinks of me. 

The blocking of my writing process showed me again that whenever I do something that is not in line with my soul, something inside me will hold me back. Which means in this case that I will let my soul speak to share my path with you, knowing that it is perfectly ok if you don’t resonate with it or understand it. I know that I am where I am supposed to be, and from this place I would love to share with you. 

Life energy

It all started half a year ago. While sharing a delicious community lunch, one of our friends shared these few words with us: “Last year I did a prana retreat”. As a flash of lighting these words entered into the consciousness of Elias, my soul companion. My body filled itself with a strong energy and we both knew that this topic meant something important to both of us. 

A few years ago Elias had a beautiful experience of sustaining his body on life energy. While walking the Camino to Santiago de Compostela, his body told him he would not need food to walk this journey. He walked 20 to 50 kilometres a day, ate just a little bit of fruit and felt more energetic than ever before. During this journey he was cleaning his body, cleaning his mind and creating space in his heart for his soul to enter deeper and deeper. After this journey his body needed food again, but he knew that this experience was a glimpse of the future he would live.
 

When the words of ‘prana’ were spoken,
he felt how the future all of a sudden was right in front of him. 

From that moment on we started to dive deep into this topic. Together we did research to understand what it means to live on life energy. We read books, stories and watched documentaries about people who live on prana for over decades. While doing this research I started to understand more and more how deep our human programming goes, and how the beliefs we collectively carry have an impact on what our bodies need. Our very first cells are self sustainable prana cells. But from the moment we receive the cell memory of our parents, our cells fill themselves with personal and collective beliefs. And so also the belief that we need food to survive. 

With those collective beliefs we hold ourselves back within our own evolution.  Our beliefs tell us what we can and can not do, but it is up to us to become conscious of those beliefs and question ourselves if they still serve us or if they hold us back. I started to understand that this process is about freedom, about the freedom of choice. It is about releasing the body, mind and with that also the soul from what does not serve any longer. 
 

With that realisation I felt a very strong light energy shining through my belly

and I knew that this was a step I needed to take, a step to free my body, mind and soul. 

While sharing our research and strong feelings about this path with our surroundings, the guidance to step into the process followed. While visiting the Netherlands my mom shared with us that she knows a couple who lives on prana for over three years. So we sended them a message and met each other the next day, on my birthday. For the first time I met someone who doesn’t need food to survive but lives on the life energy that surrounds us everywhere. Directly my body reacted to their frequency, like my cells recognized their vibration and started to prepare themselves for their own transformation. 

The process

For over three hours we talked. They shared about the process of cleaning your cells from old beliefs, habits, trauma’s and emotions. So that the clean cells can become original prana cells again and feed themselves with life energy. 

Water absorbs energy. Unconsciously this means that the water within our body, within our cells, absorbs everything we experience and everything our family line has experienced. Consciously this means that we can ‘load’ the water within our body with the energy that serves our soul journey. The process of cleaning starts a month before the retreat with a vegan diet and no sugar, alcohol and chemical additives. A week before the retreat you only eat soups and juices to clean the intestines.

The retreat is a week long of intense and active breathwork, exercises, processing and: Three days of dry fasting! Three days without food and water, even without a shower. During these three days you dry out your body while cleaning it with active breathwork, to free your cells until the bones from the energies that do not serve any longer. The dry fasting follows with three months of drinking juices, 100% fruit juices. The fruit sugars are needed to strengthen the muscles because after the dry fasting the body will be very weak. And you drink only one taste of juice to free yourself also from the addiction of taste. Starting with 1000 kcal of juice a day and reducing that to 0 kcal. Within these three months 80% of the cells will be renewed and work as the original prana cells, filled with the self-sustaining energy of life. The last 20% will renew within 7 years. After the three months of juicing you can start to explore food again to discover how the new body wants to live and be related to food. 

During this conversation they shared how this process is about cleaning your body. Cleaning your body to create more space for Source to enter, create more space for your Soul to enter, for You to enter. It is a process of healing the body, healing your intestines, healing from allergies and other diseases. It is a process of awareness, awareness of old programming, beliefs, trauma’s, emotions and experiences. Awareness that gives you the opportunity of conscious choices. A process of becoming more and more sensitive, sensitive to energies around you, energies that enter your system, energies that raise you up or pull you down. While you embody your soul more and more it will become impossible to not listen to your soul any longer. 
 

Their sharing touched us both deeply. 

An inner knowing filled our bodies, a knowing that we are ready to take this step. 

The day after we met these beautiful souls they sended us a message. A message that made us feel carried beyond any expectations. They shared with us that they would love to come to Damanhur to guide us through our process. And so three months later they arrived. We arranged the best Damanhurian tour guide to give them a dive in Damanhur, with of course a magical visit to the Temples of Humankind. After a week of deep diving in Damanhur our private retreat started. At that moment I felt a duality rising inside of me, a deep fear of dying met my inner knowing that I am ready and following the right path. A knowing that I am ready to let the old me die and to be reborn as new. 

Hand in hand we took a big step in our evolution

The months before the retreat I became more and more conscious about why I eat. I realised that in those months I wasn't hungry at all, but I ate because of habits, emotional and social reasons. Also my body became more and more sensitive, like it was telling me what she already wanted to skip from my diet. My taste changed and I became sick of the constant feeling of being full. I felt more and more how ready my body was to take this step. 

The retreat with the three days of dry fasting was maybe the most heavy thing I voluntarily did in this lifetime. It was very tough to dry out my body, while doing intense breathwork. We both decided to go fully for it, to dive deep and face our inner darkness, to throw out everything that we don’t want to carry anymore. So we jumped deep to face our childhood trauma’s, to release ourselves from family lines and collective programming. I screamed all the stored anger out of my body and felt how much weight I have let my body carry for so many years. During the second day of dry fasting I went so deep and threw out so much trash that after that a huge wave of love entered my body. 
 

I fell in love with my body, in love with her strength,
with her power and dedication. 

From that moment on my body was filled with love. For the very first time I felt how my soul fully wanted to be in my body. Like my body and soul fell in love and committed themselves to take care of each other during this lifetime. For me this was the most beautiful moment of the retreat, the greatest gift I could receive. 

After the dry fasting we had a beautiful water ceremony where we slowly let our body adapt to water again. I can tell you that this was the best water I ever drank! Since that moment we have been drinking juices. In the beginning we felt like newborn babies, our bodies were weak and traumatised, our energetic system was extremely open which made contact with other people feel like an attack to our energy. So we took all the time that our bodies needed to recover, to heal. Every day we got stronger and felt how our bodies were recovering and learning how to cope with this new life. 

During these last few weeks we are facing a lot of small habits related to food. But we also still face old energies that the cells are releasing, like feeling angry without any reason or a deep sadness that wants to come out. We also face deeper fears that come to the surface during this whole process. Fears that we need to face because our bodies will resist going further if we don´t, the body will lose weight and energy until we face it, be with it and heal it. 

After not being around food for a while we started to go out for dinner with friends, without eating ourselves. We felt surprisingly comfortable and did not even feel any urge to eat. We were enjoying the company and feeling the energy of the happy people around us entering our cells. We smelled the food and felt the energy streaming through our nose, and spread itself through our bodies. So after the dinner we felt very energised. We also started cooking again, and feel the beauty and joy of preparing a delicious meal for friends and family, without doing it for ourselves but pure to serve others. 

Now, 6 weeks after the retreat, I feel stronger, healthier and more alive than ever. My body feels so new and clean, so flexible and healthy. I have started to reduce my daily intake of juice, constantly within contact with my body, letting my body tell me what is good for her. And since I take in less calories, I get more energy and even my body starts to look more healthy. I even gained some weight and got some fat back on my belly. Every day I am surprised about how well my body reacts to this process. She shows me that everything is possible and that I can trust in her guidance. 

In about 6 weeks we can start to discover food again to feel how our system reacts to it, what urges, emotions or old habits come up. We can explore what role food will have in our new life. What I now feel is the desire of the joy and celebration of life that food brings when you are together, that I would love to eat at social occasions. Like going to a very good restaurant with friends or tasting the culinair bites on a wedding. But we will see in time where this process will take us. 
 

This process is for me not about not eating but about the freedom of choice. 
Eating because of a conscious choice, instead of out of need. 

At last I would love to share some topics with you that I have heard and felt a lot these past months.
 

Anorexia vs. Prana

We hear a lot of people comparing the process with anorexia, because both processes are about not eating and losing weight in a short period of time. From the world where we come from I understand that this fear comes up and I would love to share my point of view about this topic. 

I see how one represents the Shadow side, while the other represents the Light. One is about not eating to leave the body, while the other is about not eating to enter the body deeper and deeper. One is about punishing yourself, punishing your body, while the other is about freeing yourself, freeing your body. One is an unconscious act of slowly letting your body die, while the other is a conscious act to live more fully. 
 

Worries

During this process we both lost around 12-13kg, which evoked a lot of worries within the people around us. Worries about the topic mentioned above, worries about my female hormones and child wish, about our bodies giving up and the worry that we are killing ourselves. All these worries are not always spoken, but they are felt. 

During this process I had a big realisation about worries. I always believed that being worried is an act of love, it shows how much I care about the other person. But what I experienced the last few weeks was that we were both losing weight because the people around us were worried about us. Their worries entered our systems and affected our body in a destructive way. When I realised that this was happening I understood that a worry is a projection of fear, it is the fear we feel inside of ourselves that we project on someone we love. The fear of dying, the fear of losing someone and many other fears that are hidden deep inside of us. While releasing this I could send the fears, that others were energetically putting in my system, back to the owners. After that I directly started to gain weight again and felt free and extremely energetic.
 

Fear represents the shadow side which captures the other person in that same energy,

while trust represents the light side, the side of love